three


There are three in our family,
in our team.
We are unbeatable threesome built on instincts and knowledge and love.
We understand each other and we get each other.
We love being together
for the big things
and the little things.


And our three will soon become a four.
And lately I think that we've been finding that concept really, really scary.
This whole 'three' thing works for us.
Being a family of three is pretty effortless these days.
Rocking the boat by adding a crew member seems daunting and unfamiliar.


These last weeks of pregnancy go by notoriously slowly
as discomfort sets in and sleep becomes difficult.
You count down the time left and wish the days away 
waiting for your new bundle to hurry up and join you already.
And I am full of all those feelings;
impatience is kicking in and I want to meet the little character who has been kicking my ribs
and poking their brother when he comes for a cuddle.
I love growing a baby
but I'm ready to not be pregnant now.
I'm looking forward to being able to have a proper hug with my husband without a big bump in the way.
I'm looking forward to being able to climb stairs without feeling like I may pass out.
I'm looking forward to making my family a four.


I think knowing that things are about to change so much
makes you sit back and see what you already have.
I can remember when I was pregnant last time
having fears that we were about to ruin a pretty perfect existence by having a a baby.
It seems insane to think about it now,
but there were times when I thought that nothing could possibly make out lives any better
and that the sleepless nights and stress that a baby would bring
were going to spoil our lovely newly wedded bliss,
mess up our lovely home,
and upset our precious little fluffy babies.
Of course as soon as I met the beautiful boy I knew how wrong those thoughts had been,
because it just seemed like with every new thing he touched
he made our world even more perfect.


So I keep reminding myself that we aren't breaking up our team,
we aren't ruining or spoiling something which we think of as perfect;
we are adding to it.
We are gaining a team mate.
Another person will be part of our team and our family.
Someone else will be part of the awesomeness that is our family.
They will be part of the instincts and knowledge and love that makes our family work.

But I won't be wishing the days away.
Because as much as there are some exciting and wonderful things coming out way,
as much as I cannot wait to be cuddling a newborn again with that delicious smell they have,
as much as I'm looking forward to not being pregnant,
and as much as I cannot wait to introduce my beautiful boy to his baby brother or sister,
I can completely wait for this new chapter to begin
because I'm still so head over heels in love with this chapter.


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  1. Lovely pictures. Plenty of room for another one though. It's going to be wonderful - you'll love that new adventure just as much,I'm sure. x

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    1. Thank-you. I am looking forward to it more and more, until I think about it too much and then it's just a bit scary. I know that in no time at all it will be like there were always four of us. X

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  2. Beautiful, poignant and brought back some emotional memories for me. In fact the final part almost had me in tears. You are right you a simply making an already perfect team even better but you can t help,but worry how the youngest and most perfect , so far, will adjust. It will be fine though
    Lovely family photos too x x

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    1. Ahhh, I suppose if anyone knows my feelings you do, seeing as your boys have the same age gap as I'll have. I know that is natural to be somewhere between scared and excited when you're expecting, because big changes are coming, but I'm looking forward to it so much. Especially when I get to see my babies together. X

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  3. I have the same fears but I am so excited about seeing my babies together too. Enjoy your last few weeks as a three x

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    1. That is the bit that I am most excited about. My babies together!!! But it won't stop be enjoying having the little guy all to myself. X

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  4. I felt the same in my last few weeks of pregnancy. But now four is perfect too. Lovely post x

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    1. Hehe. I think all the hormones at the end leave your careering between stupidly excited and absolutely terrified. X

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  5. Such a lovely post, I have been thinking the same things and know exactly how you feel. Gorgeous pics x

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    1. Ahhh, thanks. I guess we'll be going though those same changes at the same time. I'm definitely feeling more ready to embrace those changes lately. X

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  6. Such a gorgeous post. Love the idea of you gaining a team mate. Just beautiful. x

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    1. Awww, thank-you. I'm glad you liked it. That's what it feels like more and more now, less like we're breaking something up, but just making something even better. Fingers crossed anyway! :) x

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  7. Very natural feelings,I remember them well!Give it a week and you will wonder what life was like before you had Splodge! X

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    1. I keep thinking back to when I was pregnant last time and I'm pretty sure I felt the exact same feelings then, but like you say, once they are here it's like they've always been part of the family. X

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  8. I feel exactly the same way already and I am still so far away from it becoming a reality. I also remember feeling worried that having Iyla would change our relationship and stop us enjoying our time together (even though things weren't even that great back then!), so funny to think back now. I find it really hard to imagine having two favourite little people and I don't think second children will ever change life as dramatically as the first but they have a whole new role which is just as amazing. I can't wait for Iyla to have a sibling and to practise (practice?! I still don't know which is which!) my parenting skills as a second time, more relaxed parent. Enjoy your last few weeks! x

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    1. It's niggled at me this whole pregnancy, about the changes and how we'll all cope with them. I know that second children just have to fit in more and that we'll just get on with it, and I'm also looking forward to doing it all again and not being quite so scared and lost like you are as a first-timer. X

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  9. Beautiful words and pictures! I love the one of you all peeping through the door The way you describe yourselves as a team is so true, adding member to the family only enhances you and makes you stronger. Cherishing these last few weeks is also a good distraction from the discomfort, which doesn't last long in the grand scheme of things xx

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    1. I'm trying to make myself focus on the good things that the change will bring, rather than being sad that it won't still be like it is right now. I know that in no time at all it will be like there were always 4 of us. X

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  10. Lovely post, you had me in tears..... I'm being induced tomorrow and we will also be a family of four. Since getting up this morning I've been feeling sick with the nerves, excitement, impatience and dread all at the same time.

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    1. Oooooh, exciting. I guess the fear is pretty natural right towards the end, along with the excitement. I always feel a bit of both when I'm entering the unknown! X

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  11. This is a gorgeous post Lucy, and I am sure when I am at the same stage I will have exactly the same feelings as you. The photos are gorgeous too- your Dad is very talented. x

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    1. I have my dad and my mum to thank for these photos. It was a combination of the pair of them.
      And I have to say that my feelings have changed a lot throughout the pregnancy, from excitement to fear, from can't wait to meet baby to not wanting my due date to ever come. I think it all seems more real lately, and now I just want this new person to join our family already. Although I will always treasure our time as a three too. x

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  12. Beautiful! And yes, you are gaining a team mate. We have four daughters, and the only time I even notice that we have a "big family" is when people mention it. To us, we just have our perfect little family of girls!

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